WARNING: NSFW/Reader Discretion Advised due to language.
I rarely write about my UU congregation. I’ve been rather deliberate about not writing about my church. In fact, i think it’s been less than half a dozen times over the year and some change that my blog has been up that I’ve even mentioned my congregation or its members.
There certainly have been plenty of times I could have posted something that really pissed me off about the members of my church… how fucking whiny they can be, how negligent they can be about their kids tearin shit up at the church, how distrusting of fellow church-goers (and human beings in general) they can be, how stingy they are with their time and money, how fucking juvenile they act over the most trivial of events, how they place importance on things that don’t make a god damn bit of difference, and how god damned, fucking shitty, silly, goofy, smelly, nerdy and motley they can be.
No, I’ve never written about those things. Although being a leader in my church i hear about, and from them, often and would love to just get it off my chest about how god damned self absorbed and self righteous they are. A personal blog might be a great place to do that but being a leader in my church and adding this site to the UU blog aggregator, I don’t think it would be appropriate to air our dirty laundry in what is essentially a public place.
I had a friend once who was in a similar position at our church who told me about the constant emails received over the stupidest SHIT. The details were never disclosed but we once had a conversation where it was said, “you would be surprised at the number of people in our congregation who you think have it so emotionally together, who are so intelligent, academically accomplished, spiritually grounded but are… are… [there was a pause, a look down, as if ashamed for them…]
… far from it.”
You wanna know somethin’? It’s stressful for those of us who are looked at to be in charge… a bunch of hack, volunteers giving it their best. It’s stressful trying to keep programs going that no one attends or would give two squirts of piss for. It’s stressful trying to put together a worship service for a UU Christian, UU Buddhist, UU Pagan, UU Atheist or UU Wannabe when you’re not a trained, professional clergy. It’s stressful trying to work with no money.
It’s stressful trying to manage work life, home life, family relationships, relationships with friends, a relationship with a lover, financial matters and overall life matters along with (what is for all intents and purposes) a second job that has become rather unrewarding. It’s stressful hoping the whole god damned thing doesn’t fall into the shitter when you’re on the crew that’s holding on as hard as you can to the “don’t fall into the shitter” safety rope. And it’s stressful keeping this place going when you believe in your heart of hearts that this place does matter yet it seems like none of the people who claim it matters don’t seem to care one way or the other if it keeps going!!!
So when one of those persons who claims this place matters but aren’t particularly involved in the day to day grunt work is overheard saying, “you know this could have been better if…”
You know what!… Go FUCK yourself and the horse you rode in on!
ok… i feel better now. I think i’ll go back to being my usual cheerful self again.
[Deist grabs the leash and his dog and steps outside whistling…]